life has never been like this before.can't be worse than this...
..n that's what u get for falling again,u can never get her out of your head..
it's the way she makes me feel..
it's the way she makes me fall in love..
i'm beginning to hate the peeps in my class.not all of them though..
school is great,i crave for education...but not those kinda friends..
my late past has been an issue they're talking about..
making fun of anyone is a sin..
u guys are talking behind her back,think God like that?
but it's fine with me though..none of my problems..
hey i just wanna let u all know something..
whenever im typing a new entry or rather when i wanna post a new entry,my jovial mood runs away...
i begin to feel like a sadist, an idiot , asshole to be specific..
even asshole is too soft a word to describe me..
i notice n i'm aware that i'm not as talkative & loud as i used to be..
i heard them talking behind me,concerning me.
"what happened to him?" n sorts..
thanks guys for your concern but please just let me be..
ICA's nearing n i just couldn't concentrate lately..
n the test just now, was 1/10 i should rate to score..
haiz..i miss my friends.not poly friends of course..
my secondary hommies..CNY chalet booked aites.
how i wish i can join u all on the 8th..
but u must know.being with my family is the most precious moments of all..
especailly my mom..

haizz there's one thing i hate about myself..
of not realising or seeing or knowing that people i know are in front of me sometimes..
no no most of the time...
maybe when i look afar,i'm not aware of the things near me..
that's why im carrying this label on my back lately...
"sombong" or arrogant...
my ex calls me that,my sis calls me that n my cousins as well..

tell u what..
why don't u guys take a knife..
n stab me..in the heart..
let me feel the penetration...
so what the hell are u waiting for???

11:16 AM