Ridwan told me just now that someone told Bella...
that she chatted with me on Msn and my nick was so full of vulgarities.
can YOU just dont poke ur nose into my business..
even Bella is sick of u..had enuff of entertaining u.
i feel very lucky to have a short-tempered mom n a patient dad.
Mama n Abah will always be with me...spiritually even..
so for those of you who dont know me well.
if im provoked n i get really "up" after that...
say thanks to my mom...
but if i keep my cool n relax...
salutes to my dad..

can i not have a girlfriend? a special one that is..
why am i so stupid n blind to always fall for those that can never be mine?
shoot me in the head will you...
go concentrate on ur life Farhan!!

Yan, lets do that thing again alright!
lets climb out of your kitchen window,
jump onto the roof of the sheltered walkway,
n finally walla to the ground floor!!
salutes to me n Yan!!!

now i would like to dedicate this to my friend..
hey whats up with u lately..
why suddenly ur blog entries are getting "obscene"?
c'mon if u have problems,share with me.
we're friends..what are friends for?
dont let words pull u down..
come as u are...as u were...
fuck the world if she hates you...i dont...
as bandmembers,ive become quite close to you n areyz.
areyz n me are here,if there's anything we can help..

im so sick of myself..
my bad habit of spending money like water..
spending too much..asking too much..forcing too much!
when i look into the mirror..i see someone superficial.
thats me..wearing things that im not suppose to..
im not rich..like my other friends..
who can just go to any ATM n withdraw money anytime!
who dont shiver or shaken when there's $200 in their hands..
im not jealous of u guys..its better to be this way..

u know what..we tend to hurt the people we love..
without knowing..if not,will only realise it after some time.
but wait...they hurt me too...so........?!
fuck them n fuck u too!!
except for my parents n my siblings...
if u think i dont deserve to be ur friend..tell me now!
if a guy my standard doesnt fit to be in ur Contacts, tell me!!!
when u told me that good friends are harder to find...
was i blind?
to know that in time...never trust anyone again...

4:34 PM