the waves of feelings in me have not settle down.
still...im so stubborn to like her.
dear God,please remove her from my heart.
i dont need her...but why my heart does?
many sincere thanks to kak for hearing me out.
trailer park trash i am right? sorry...

my empty meaningless world was filled w happiness.
last wednesday i performed at the SAA awards night.
jie jie came down to watch me sing.
yesterday (friday) watched Kingdom of Heaven w her again.
jie u better dn stop laughing cos i'd love to join.
she really has this contagious laughing gas.
how i hope Diah could get such love from kak.
im a useless,good for nothing abang.
hope Diah n kak will get along soon.
cos they both like to laugh.

tmr kak yani n kak zaza are getting married.
i mean da nikah..besok upacara sanding.
congrats to them n may God bless u two siblings.
while im still finding the exit from my life's maze..
others are happily living their lives.
they dont need me n i dont need them.
i dont wana disturb anyone anymore.
except for my blood.they understand me.
to those of you who are having problems.
share with me if it suits me.
if not,find others who are experts in them.

so for now just leave me alone.
wana hate me? by all means.
i cant be loved by everyone , can i?
so ya..u go your way.n i go mine.
thanks for the memories.
n sorry for the burden.

11:17 PM