it's 1609 hrs now.
2 of my cousins are here.
watching Benchwarmers with my sibs.
n i'm here sitting in front of e comp.
trying to think of what to write.
did alot of things for reasons.
folded the clothes,put e clothes out to dry.
fried some nuggets for em,vacuumed my room.
i miss her...very much.
y am i like this?
y is it very hard for me to accept everything?
y is it so hard for me to forgive n forget?
it's hard to say that i was wrong.
it's hard to say i miss u.
it's hard to say i had my time.
it's hard to say if only.
a day without u, it's not the same.
i don't know if i can ever come to terms with it.
but i wanna be with her forever.
it's too too late to leave.
cos i've fallen so deeply.
i'm clueless......what am i doing?
is it true i'm very unpredictable?
my actions, my behaviour, my character?
she tried very hard to forget me the other time.
i was really sad...i'm useless.

i just want u to know tt i love u.
even tho i still can't accept what u've done, i love u.
cos my heart is stronger than my brain.
i know u n u know me.
i've fallen so deeply.
y can't u see?
my head's telling me to leave.
but my heart knows i wanna stay.
to be with u.

*i'm here without u
but u're still on my lonely mind

4:11 PM