Wednesday, April 04, 2007
ok i admit i've been lazy. too lazy to update this pathetic blog of mine. well, it's april and my birthday is coming soon. can't wait to celebrate with the loved ones. brithdays aside, let's talk about some serious business. not that my birthday is not a serious matter, it is, but what i'm going to touch on is more serious cos it invloves matters of the heart and to a large extent, feelings.
let's start with a scenario first shall we?
a guy brings his significant other to outings with his friends. hoping the significant other and the friends would get along cos both parties mean a lot to him. so ya, as we all should expect, the friends become nice and gentle when talking to the gf and the guy feels happy. but as time goes by, these friends start to get on his nerves, of course, without they realising it, with remarks and comments and probably accompanied with some wild gestures and assumptions about the guy and his gf. but the thing here is that, most of it has been about his gf.
and so, as cliche as it seems, that guy is me. (take note that this my space, my blog. whatever i'm going to say might make you wonder why am i taking things too seriously. some of you will meet up after this or by chance, just bump into each other, and start talking about what's being said here. for me, i just want to make known my feelings. explaining to everyone at one time would be awkward and almost impossible. so this is when, this pathetic blog comes in handy.)
it all started when she came to have lunch with me in school. and a friend of mine just can't, til now, call her by her real name. i know the name is spelt like that, which is unique to me, but the u know the pronunciation is not exactly what u think it is. you're one great friend of mine in campus but things like these make me ......i don't know, feel distant from u. ok, it should be you who feels distant from me. just please just try calling her by the real name. ini bukan ejaan melayu nak baku2. it's eme, pronounced as "amy". get it?
now for my high school friends. not all of them are insensitive but some. i do admit i'm one of the insensitive ones but i'm mostly that when i'm on the field. cos some people just don't learn. ok forget about football. haiz... honestly, i'm really tired to explain myself, my feelings here. i just want you guys to know that commenting on my loved ones, as in this case, my love, can be a serious thing. a slight aggressive remark could just make me snap. on the inside of course. gotta be honest with you. i'm a very gullible and vulnerable at times but i'm one considerate guy. believe it or not, i am. you guys go n run your mouths like that about her. ok, not anything bad about her but those kinky and "suspicious" sayings you guys make of her. i really resent those.
please, just please.... stop it. well, at least i have to admit that she's hot. deny it, and you're in denial. face it. if you think those remarks you've been making would make me feel proud or something, then you're wrong. i don't go fantasize about your gf right? or your squeeze or your exes.... and one gentle reminder, to all my friends who are attached or dating or whatever. please keep those confidential details of what you've done with your partner or gf to yourselves. telling the whole world how those girls' physical features look like is really not doing those girls any favour. and i find it unethical to boast about it. sins are sins. those moments that we've sinned should be shared or kept, not to be proud of or worse, boast about it.
dalah. sakit hati jugak eh kalau nak blog benda2 yang merisikokan perasaan dan soal hati? tak ke gitu? ok la... tu lah. since you people really wanted me to update right, here it is. been keeping this inside for quite long. í'm really sorry cos i know i've done wrong to almost all of you. i'm trying to change and to a certain extent, have been successful. to hurt and being hurt is two very different matters. so i'm just going to leave it like it is. i believe my main points aren't stressed out here cos i don't want to seem so ridiculous and too sensitive. partly, too, is because i would not wanna hurt some parties' feelings.
to a great day today. i wanna go and find work. gotta get ready for interview later at 2. wharf operations supervisor. hai............... ok people. wait patiently for another adventure of Mr Farhan.
let's start with a scenario first shall we?
a guy brings his significant other to outings with his friends. hoping the significant other and the friends would get along cos both parties mean a lot to him. so ya, as we all should expect, the friends become nice and gentle when talking to the gf and the guy feels happy. but as time goes by, these friends start to get on his nerves, of course, without they realising it, with remarks and comments and probably accompanied with some wild gestures and assumptions about the guy and his gf. but the thing here is that, most of it has been about his gf.
and so, as cliche as it seems, that guy is me. (take note that this my space, my blog. whatever i'm going to say might make you wonder why am i taking things too seriously. some of you will meet up after this or by chance, just bump into each other, and start talking about what's being said here. for me, i just want to make known my feelings. explaining to everyone at one time would be awkward and almost impossible. so this is when, this pathetic blog comes in handy.)
it all started when she came to have lunch with me in school. and a friend of mine just can't, til now, call her by her real name. i know the name is spelt like that, which is unique to me, but the u know the pronunciation is not exactly what u think it is. you're one great friend of mine in campus but things like these make me ......i don't know, feel distant from u. ok, it should be you who feels distant from me. just please just try calling her by the real name. ini bukan ejaan melayu nak baku2. it's eme, pronounced as "amy". get it?
now for my high school friends. not all of them are insensitive but some. i do admit i'm one of the insensitive ones but i'm mostly that when i'm on the field. cos some people just don't learn. ok forget about football. haiz... honestly, i'm really tired to explain myself, my feelings here. i just want you guys to know that commenting on my loved ones, as in this case, my love, can be a serious thing. a slight aggressive remark could just make me snap. on the inside of course. gotta be honest with you. i'm a very gullible and vulnerable at times but i'm one considerate guy. believe it or not, i am. you guys go n run your mouths like that about her. ok, not anything bad about her but those kinky and "suspicious" sayings you guys make of her. i really resent those.
please, just please.... stop it. well, at least i have to admit that she's hot. deny it, and you're in denial. face it. if you think those remarks you've been making would make me feel proud or something, then you're wrong. i don't go fantasize about your gf right? or your squeeze or your exes.... and one gentle reminder, to all my friends who are attached or dating or whatever. please keep those confidential details of what you've done with your partner or gf to yourselves. telling the whole world how those girls' physical features look like is really not doing those girls any favour. and i find it unethical to boast about it. sins are sins. those moments that we've sinned should be shared or kept, not to be proud of or worse, boast about it.
dalah. sakit hati jugak eh kalau nak blog benda2 yang merisikokan perasaan dan soal hati? tak ke gitu? ok la... tu lah. since you people really wanted me to update right, here it is. been keeping this inside for quite long. í'm really sorry cos i know i've done wrong to almost all of you. i'm trying to change and to a certain extent, have been successful. to hurt and being hurt is two very different matters. so i'm just going to leave it like it is. i believe my main points aren't stressed out here cos i don't want to seem so ridiculous and too sensitive. partly, too, is because i would not wanna hurt some parties' feelings.
to a great day today. i wanna go and find work. gotta get ready for interview later at 2. wharf operations supervisor. hai............... ok people. wait patiently for another adventure of Mr Farhan.
7:54 AM